to someone...

I really don’t know what’s going on with me. I think I’ve been going crazy. Or maybe I’m just turning green. Or maybe just stupid or weak. I’ve been living in the present but someone has been living in his past that’s why I find this present hard to deal with. Past is past; you can never take it back unless you want to live in it, to bring it to your present. But what the heck? What’s the point of considering the past if you are totally aware of you’re here-and-now? If you are really happy with what and whom you are with in your present? This is why sometimes I feel that life sucks and it fucks us all. Some people do not play fair. I mean, it’s all about fairness. Be fair with someone whom you are with in the present. Never dare to pursue your present if you were just triggered by some emotions in the past. Live in the present. Live the present with your present. Move on with your present life; let go of the past and learn from it.

I know you are not a past-oriented person. You always tell me to be aware of here-and-now. Well, this is my here-and-now. You are my here-and-now. We are our here-and-now. Now, please stand by your words. Please deal with it. I wouldn’t be living with this here-and-now thing if it were not because of you; if you never told me to do so.