i become an optimist.

* I was in the mood to be positive despite all the negative thoughts I have. Too many things are dashing in my mind. Too many words to tell. Too much tears to fall. But it only takes pieces of paper and a pen to write everything you feel to cover the heart’s hole.

In 18 years of living, I can’t deny that I lived with pain, hatred and frustrations. I never saw life as a positive experience. I treated it as ill-fated. I had my own wu wei.

Entering my 19^th year in this complicated world, I recognized so many things. I realized so many things as well. I never was an optimist. I was a pessimist. I never had the guts to care. I was apathetic. I, in no way valued significant things. I never expected that that was the kind of life I had lived with. I mean, that was stupid. Who would live like that? Yeah, I did but hell no now! Life is wonderful. It is beautiful. Life is such a great experience. Some may say it’s ridiculous. I can’t totally blame them. Everything in this world is relative. We have different views. We have diverse ways of facing life itself. How to handle it depends on the needs to be satisfied, dreams to be fulfilled, and goals to be attained. I may have written contradicting statements before that life sucks and it fools us. Yes, it sometimes does. One’s view of life is dependent on what one feels at a particular moment. But come on! Look into the brighter side. Life is a process—an exciting process. Nothing will be taken against us if we live as optimists.